Halfmoon said:
That's right. Keep doing what you doing cuz you're making positive moves for the both of you. We women are the back bone! No offense to anyone please.
Girl you're gonna have me break in tears again. Lawd knows I don't want to buss the ugly cry.
You "felt" it ? Describe the feeling to see if I had the same!!! Oh my, you see what we put ourselves through. Comparing the "it feeling" with one another. LOL!!!
THE IT feeling lol ...as in: alright....July for example...i went down KNOWING his appl was in Mississauga....made me fell a little better STILL felt psycho for the fear of 16 months....but still felt better than all those times Id leave bawling cause i didnt know how the F this was gonna work, or when...but just some day...Id BAWL cause id never know or have a plan when im gonna see him next till i said to myself NO MATTER WHAT every 3 months...till he gets through I CAN do this........thats how id break up the wait to myself to give myself something look forward to..
OCT NOW.....nearing end....i went down KNOWING my file had already been in kingston 3 months...and just MAYBE in another 3 it COULD happen......i didnt know that it would I JSUT FELT IT something gonna happen by xmas...but still wasnt too sure......NOV was setting my heart on him being here for xmas even though i hadnt heard nothing BUT that was my dream...but either way i was determined well if not XMAS i will be there...........
(another thing that helped was watching Readys progress i felt the vibes through her we PRAYED WE BELIEVED - we spoke it, we meant it!!! WE FELT IT!!.........)
MID novemeber i broke down.....was tired of living this way...not knowing....not hearing anything then thought id give them MP thing i shot jsut to see my file didnt get blown away with the hurricane........i kept on top of kingston even though i never heard word.....I REFUSED to listen to negativiity...i REFUSED to believe in the 20% in 6 months....MADDANT his letter about 80 PERCENT I BELIEVED it!!! whether it was true or not I BELIEVED..but i still knew that ok my DEC trip...hhat could hold me off till march and SURELY by then he'll be here.......ANYHOW......when i left oct 28 to come back here i knew it wasnt gonna be long till i see him again.....
I PRAYED and PLEADED with God......to keep my husband safe...God KNOWS hw i prayed safety over him.....GOD HEARD us our hearts.....i blieve my man got out of there when he did was by Gods hand ......my man isnt a trouble maker but God knows trouble sometimes loves to trouble him......but i SPOKE IT even when i was unsure...HONEY u will be here soon XMAS YOU WILL BE HERE BY XMAS!!!! I JUST KNOW IT if not......well u know ill be there.
Nov i had heard back from the MP saying my file in line for queue for processing.......if i dont hear anything by march contact her agian........i contacted her 2 weeks later with no hope that she could help./...btu jsut needed to express that GOD KNOWS i cant take anymore....and i need it...............NOV 23 our file went in process and i didnt even know.....till hubby called my NOV 26 saying he got PPR........and then I KNEW it was allllllllllllll over!!!!!! but we made sure........it wasnt over till he stepped foot on the plane away from badmind.......the morning he picked up his visa in MObay by 11:30am.......he was at the airport by noon.......
I JUST FELT IT..........I SPOKE XMAS.......even though sometimes i thought 'would be nice'.....but point it...when u feel that YOU are in control and GOD is in control........even if that control means going down a long weekend if ever necessary and have faith and put the rest in Gods hands....WHILE staying on top of kingston.
Jamaica from tdot.......jamaica really not all that far away.....OH AND TO BOOT...........we did our whole long distance with no skype no ovoo no computer...just our visits, and phone, and love ....it kept us going and it was enough.....YES not everyday was peaches and i dont know HOW THE HELL someone like myself managed to excercise the trust patience and faith required........BUT WHEN U KNOW u are someone everything...and they love u more than everything..........you ll know it every day...you will feel it everyday.......
LOVE IS A CRAZY ASS THING - but i wouldnt have changed a thing...........we were meant to be.
