Today I found myself crying so hard like I've never cried before, the feeling of emptiness is crawling in on me. I miss my husband, I miss it when were together, when we laugh and make fun of each other and other people, I miss how it is even when were quiet but u know that he's with u, I miss it when feel so secure and safe because your husband is with u, I miss having no care of the world because all you care about is each other. I miss how it feels to have his arms around me, I miss how he comforts me whenever I feel like the whole world has turn it's back against me that he's there with me to see it all through. I miss falling asleep in his arms and waking up seeing him watching me while I sleep, I miss when we have fights and end up being closer to each other, I miss it when he becomes a pest, I miss all the crazy things we do, I miss talking about our hopes and dreams together under the stars, I miss driving going nowhere but just enjoy each other's company, I miss how he gets jealous whenever someone looks at me, I miss cooking for him and watching him enjoy every bite as if he hasn't eaten for days, I miss how I'd feel like I'm the most beautiful woman because he would be all over me. I miss it that it's like our minds are in sync that were almost thinking the same things. I can go on and on how I miss my husband and it will just make me feel more sad than it is because there's no guarantee that I can ever be with him again or will I ever be with him in the near future, it's like were walking on a tight rope and have someone determine what our future will be. My husband is not perfect our relationship isn't perfect but I love him so much and I terribly miss him and I know that he's the only person I want to spend the rest of my life with. We've been apart for 1 year and 2 months now and it's getting harder and harder everyday to be apart from him. Magic jack, ym and skype can only do so much. I hope our vo will have a heart and grant us the approval of our application and get our visa so we can start our ever after. ( sensya na ha I just felt I had to pour out what I feel)