Oh shiff, you should have said something.. you know if there is anyone that gets what your going through its us..
we're here to laugh at the good times and be supportive during the rough patches.. i didnt realize how hard this process was until I was 3 months into it and it just breaks my heart to think that my husband can't be here. it gets a lot harder on the days when I find some random little thing like food or a joke or something lame that I know he would enjoy..
when i go to walmart, i see all these families together and when i'm on the bus, i see swooning couples and it makes me sad. sometimes i just lie there in bed at night and just pray and hope that when i wake up he will be there next to me. that is super sappy. but sometimes, i crave a hug from him or just having him around is comforting you know..
I dunno what kind of a relationship u have with your husband, but mine is my bestie
so not only am I missing the man I love, but I also miss my best friend
But I'm hopeful since he's the everlasting optimist. No matter how hard things get, he always says "baba its just for a little while longer and i'll be there".. lol.. he's been saying this since July 2010!!
Try to remember that at the end of the tunnel, there is a very bright light. I have learned that thanks to this process, hubby and i both treasure what we have so much more.. and we appreciate each other a lot more unlike most normal couples.. So cheer up and look at the bright light ahead
Hope this help!
xoxox
Mel.