no sah...mi nah go trouble with no meds chargie cause way i see it is...we're meant to think and feel a way for a certain reason, our ...anything like that maybe could sedate me, but take away the me i am....and i like me...lol....this aint no long terms depression...but for all aforementioned reasons....man, kids, overworked in job, long hours, demanding life, my grandma poor health, wanting to have a baby with my husband but even got to wait for a means for that....so much to think about..it all snowballs, and equates to the me i am right now, or every other day....even worse when mensa a run...
but the kids...they are my breaths of fresh air at the end of my day...i take my 5 year old curl up with him at night time, and snuggle the buggles out of him, cause the others too big to still be that mushy....and i miss mushy..i try and distract myself with constructive things...reading...etc...but thoughts always go back to the place where my heart is...and right now thats all over.
