Having one of those rough days. I just want to know their decision but at the same time I don't, anyone know what I mean? I mean I just want to hurry up and start our lives already. The wait is really REALLY starting to get to me now. I am tired of having to make temporary plans all the time, always stuck in place, and not being able to contribute to help out my hubby. We are married and as a spouse I should be able to provide for our family just as well. I hate it but the tension caused me to lash out at hubby even though he hasn't done anything and there isn't anything he can help to fix this rough process. I obviously apologized later because I love him and I just hate that this process is bringing out the worst in me. I am not only taking it out on myself but starting to take it on people who don't deserve it. This type of life isn't normal. Most days I can pep talk myself but I just can't. Not today. I want to be approved so badly but terrified that it might not happen. Everyone says I have nothing to worry about but I have everything in the world to worry about, I could lose my chance of being with my hubby. How is that not anything to worry about? Ugh...guys I just don't know if I can take 4 more months of this. I am losing my mind and dignity. :-X