So... you do like it? you really don't seem to.
You need to be patient. It's a long and stressful process. Everyone here understands that, but you ordered your notes very early, and were being given very bad advice. I have already told you what to look for in your notes since you decided to get them so early (any sign of the relationship assessment). The best thing you can do is try to calm down, wait, and relax. As I said earlier, other people might go through the process quicker, but you are well within normal processing times.