Thank you for sharing your personal thoughts. I fully understand and empathise with your quandary, and with all the real life difficulties encountered so far away from home.Thanks for sharing your views everyone. It all comes down to what others have mentioned - no one is forcing me to stay here or take on the citizenship. So, this discussion forced me to reflect deeply on why I am here indeed. I grew up poor and studied a lot and got a scholarship to study in the US. I had never left the country before and I just wanted to make something of myself and raise myself out of poverty. So, I took the scholarship and finished my education in the US, got a great job in Canada and worked my way into middle class. So, in a way, these reflections and moral quandaries are a bit of a luxury I never had any time for when I was poor and struggling. So, I am certainly appreciative of US, Canada and India for giving me education, career, and friendships but I have paid my dues by contributing a LOT of taxes and skilled mathematical services.
You are right however; no one is forcing us to apply for citizenship. So, while the practical utility of a more powerful passport is enticing, I've also been living a much worse life here in terms of weather, loneliness, ever increasing cost of living in the midst of almost daily stabbings and shootings and other random acts of violence, away from my family. I missed weddings of my friends and extended family. My uncles died and I couldn't see them in their last days. I' am cut off from my nieces and nephews. My days here are so much more mechanized and it feels that life is just slipping away. I've also had cardiac issues and had to wait 8 hours in the ER before being examined properly. For over 5 months I haven't been able to get an appointment with a specialist. With the projected increase in immigration without a supporting plan to also invest proportionally in housing, law enforcement and health services, these problems are only going to get worse. I am certainly not suggesting that similar problems don't exist in India. They certainly do but at this juncture, the trade-offs don't make sense for me. So, I've decided to move back to my homeland where I don't have to swear an oath to a family that murdered my ancestor just for a passport. Incidentally, it's his birthday today. Anyways, thanks for sharing your thoughts. I appreciate your time and input. Peace.
However, if you've already made an application and are expecting oath soon, might I humbly suggest proceeding with the disavow process, to keep your future options open. India isn't the same clean and welcoming place it once was and there's a "reverse culture shock" that many people experience when they return home after a long time in the west. Economic considerations that you've worked hard for besides, Simple things like taking for granted running water, not being treated as a human at a government office etc. The option is always available to have OCI, which is effectively dual citizenship, and if you're really unhappy, you can renounce Canadian citizenship in the future, but you can't get it again if your PR runs out. Think with a level mind. All the best with your journey ahead! Feel free to share your thoughts on PM.