"Perseverance is the hard work you do after you get tired of doing the hard work you already did." - Newt Gingrich
We all say that life is full of struggles, hard work, and perseverance. Every day is different from the last day. More often, we lose confidence and self-esteem when we face a problem which we have never faced before. When you see others climbing the ladder before you, there is a sense of injustice you feel. That feeling is human thing, as we all not perfect. Not perfect about guessing the bigger picture of life.
Before Diwali, I was really optimistic about getting nominated in early-October. As more people were getting nominated, I was getting more depressed and sad. (You can read my post during that time). When Raj, yes Raj, got nominated I did not get depressed, there was a feeling of peace in my mind and heart as I thought may be now my turn will come for nomination. I waited , waited, waited, and waited like a child waiting for a new toy on his/her birthday. But I really lost hope on Saturday (A day before the major Indian Festival "Diwali"), the day when there were record number of nomination given to November Batch, but I was not the lucky one.
Something personal happened on the morning of the Diwali day, I was really torn inside.(Nothing serious, but something happened in a bad way that I had not expected). I was torn and wounded on the Diwali night, but still was happy on my face. Enjoying the Diwali night with my family. After a very long time, I had a nice sleep. I slept peacefully after so many days and in the morning when I woke up it was still dark in the room. I don't know what happened and why, but I prayed to God. I prayed that, God, please show me some hope, either give me the result or tell me the truth about the result. I did not pray before Diwali or during Diwali. I don't know why, but I didn't.
Today in the morning, as usual like every day that I do in the morning, I checked my email. And there was an email from "donotreply". I tried to remember if I had done any changes to my application, or it was my birthday yesterday, or my IELTS is expiring. But as far I remembered, last changes I had done was when I created my new EE profile and there was no change in my information.
While checking the EE profile, I was happy, but anxious as well. I did know what to expect. I have seen people answering that they will get a pop-up and you need to accept the nomination. But I thought, what would happen if I had selected "block pop-up "in my browser. Anxious, uneasy, worried, nervous, afraid, impatient, and eager changed to happy, cheerful, satisfied, joyful, fortunate, and blessed.
Feeling at that time was something beyond words that I can write here. I didn't have tears of joy in my eyes and my voice didn't chocked. I was genuinely happy. Happy beyond words. Just Happy.
I could not believe that I got nominated. I could not believe that I am also among those people who had the privilege of climbing the first step on the ladder. I accepted the nomination and points got added (But I think, I should have collected all my documents before accepting the nomination as we get 30 days time to accept nomination. Also, the nomination will get expired in next 6 months from the day you accept it). I was happy. Happy, Happy, Happy, just Happy.
I know many are waiting, waiting, waiting, waiting, and waiting. They have lost hope like I had lost. They feel depressed and sadness like I did. But whatever you are feeling right now, I have felt the same. I empathize with you guys. I understand whatever I will say to you to give you hope, you will still feel hollow inside. You will still, for a moment, will not like my words or me. I understand that as I had gone through the same phase. But, I can only tell you to wait for few more days. Wait will get over soon for all the November guys. One day, we all will fulfill our Canadian dream. Just wait my brothers and sisters.
Never cut a tree down in the wintertime. Never make a negative decision in the low time. Never make your most important decisions when you are in your worst moods. Wait. Be patient. The storm will pass. The spring will come. - Robert H. Schuller