Hey guys
Well this is a truly excruciating wait. Things here are awful and the whole situation is putting a strain on our relationship and it sucks!
I have always been independent & been in charge of my own finances. And, now, I am here in Canada forced to wait around for as long on this while relying on others for practically everything. I'm slowly withering away and I can't remember what it feels like to be happy.
I thought about going back to England until my visa is approved but my bf doesn't want us to be apart for that long. I don't want to be apart for that long either but at the same time, I am sick of spending every waking minute alone. He is at work all day long and when he gets home, he is exhausted and wants to relax.
I miss working so bad. I miss having a reason to get out of bed and to get dressed. I miss being able to go and get a pedicure. He doesn't earn an awful lot and we're trying to make ends meet while trying to save for our future too but I just wish I was able to contribute and wish that I had some independence financially.
Sorry for the rant, have nobody else to turn to.
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