Ahhh.... LivnKani... that adorable that you think we have it all together (I'm not trying to be condescending, I'm just teasing a little). We are as lost as you are. Some of us cry ourselves to sleep, some of us lash out at others because of frustration, and some of us do both... I'm sure there are ways of coping that I haven't mentioned as everyone is different. I'm happy to know that we appear to be okay, when in reality, we're all crumbling inside. There isn't a day that goes by when my heart doesn't break a little more that I am not with my husband. I get to see him every 3 months or sooner and I STILL don't function well in society.
We are here for each other, so when we feel alone, we come on here. I had to try very hard to see any positive rather than negative and the way I see my current waiting situation, another day passed is another day sooner that I can be with hubby.
I encourage you to visit here more often. Please vent your frustrations if you need to or read up on positive stories of others. My husband is angry and can be very mean and detached and it hurts and I can guarantee you that prior to this forum, I would have had no idea how to handle him because all I want is for him to whine and cry with me, but instead he gets angry that he cannot make it better. And I posted a couple of blurbs on here about it and a lot of members swooped in to encourage me that I am not alone on that part.
We are not living in sunshine in roses, though we may have it appear that way.
Please remember LivnKani, that you my friend, are very loved by us, even if it's only online. :-* **HUGS**
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Ninirae...
Thanks for the words of encouragement, I do agree that I can be supported by those who get it!
I will try my best to do less lurking and more talking....but believe it or not I'm a shy chick! As for the
crying yourself to sleep....I know all too well how that feels. When I'm there I start balling from a few days
before I leave straight up until I get home and for days after. How many of you wait until the very last minute to
board your flight because you can't stand to know you have to leave your husband behind? I usually
HATE that ride to the NMA...n e ways thanks again..hugs right back at'cha :-*