I just wanted to respond to you because this really struck a chord. In fact I had tears in my eyes reading this because I know exactly, exactly how you feel and it sucks. We have just finished with the process as of yesterday and I want you to know, there will be a time in the not-too-distant future where it will all be behind you. When I was in the same spot you were I felt like it would never, ever end... but it will. I promise. Be strong, take it day by day, and soon enough all of those days will turn into months and before you know it this will all be behind you. Hang in there.