I wish I could stop thinking about it. I need to take up meditation!
I'm not sure about others but it feels like my life is on hold until this process is over. My family, friends, and job all know I'm leaving. Hard to advance your career when they know you've got one foot out the door! They're already hiring my replacement so I can train them. And I can't get a new job until PR comes through. My boyfriend has already moved to Canada and is setting up our apartment. And then if something goes wrong with my application, my whole plan for my life goes out the window!
I've promised myself not to call for updates until the 6 month mark, like they ask. I haven't decided if I will get GCMS notes, but I'm not going to order them any time soon for certain. I know nothing has happened on my application yet, in all likelihood. I know there's not much I can do but wait... but that makes me feel very helpless. I think it makes a lot of sense why people are so stressed. It's not a helpful feeling in this case, but I think it's a very normal one.