Hi everybody!
I could say as few people before me that Im new on this forum, but I guess it would not be completely true since I was reading this topic since few months before I registered here. It was taking so much time to make my decision about if it really worth to join here. I feel myself so pathetic now, I hope you forgive me.
I fought against my worry, and I really want to be a part of this topic. I feel so much alone and I guess I just need somebody who could really understand my situation. I know that probably it's only you guys who can really feel what I feel... The feeling of the waiting... The feeling like it never ends.
But, to be polite at first, I should introduce myself.
And I am already so sorry, my english is not perfect at all, hehe.
My name is Ildi. My nationality is Hungarian and as I saw, I am not the only one in this topic who's from the same country as me.
"Kedves Hungary avagy Csilla, ez neked szólt.
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My case is just close to yours guys... We have our sponsorship application with my husband who was born and is living in Canada. I arrived to Canada in 2009 when I was 15 yrs old. I was a failed refugee claimant in 2012 and I had to leave the country. It was the hardest time of my life, when I had to go to the airport and 2 cbsa officer brought me to the entrance of the airplane, what brought me back to Hungary. It all happened in October 2012.
During my stay, when I was living in Canada, I met my husband in 2011. I was 17 but I found the most important person in my life. It's not a teenager love, it was never meant to be that, but most of people say it and hurts me so much every time... We met in may 2011 and in November we engaged each other. We had so many plans and we definetlyy wanted to marry at the summer, next year. But, the same year, not a lot after I got engaged, I had my hearing at the refugee board. Our claimant was refused... And a world's been destroyed in me. Of course, we appealed, since me and my moher, we had our life there. She met my step-father in Canada and they are married now too, but him, my step-father is Hungarian. He followed my mother to Europe after we've been deported, he were not able to start a sponsorship and he didn't want to wait.
Me, since my husband is Canadian Citizen, he cannot just leave the country to come here to live with me, it's a really big procedure and we want to have our life in Canada if we can. We sent our application in december 2012 what Missisauga recieved correctly. The file were transferred to Vienna as well since my husband is eligible to be a sponsor. In february we got the letter about the transfer, but since then... There is no new.
We made the application with a lawyer, though all the documents were prepared by our own. We took a lawyer because we thought it's not an easy case since I had to leave Canada and I can only return if I get the permission from the borderline office too.
Our file was really complete when we sent it at first. We had all the documents needed and pictures as well. All the MSN and Skype logs from the past when we just started to talk... And all the MSN logs during the dating... Document that we have a bank account together.... Eerything. We shared our life with the immigration as they asked, we show them everythig we could.
My husband came to visit me in Hungary 2 times already. Once in February 2013, then again in June for 2 weeks, so we could celebrate our 1st marriage anniversary in the arms of each other. We had both times, after he went back, we made 2 update in our folder and sent it to Vienna. It included photos about the "vacancy" when my husband visited me and western union recipes, since my husband send me the money to pay what I have to, food, bills, etc. Because of the 6 hours difference between the time zones, my husband preferred if I don't go to work, just stay at home and concentrate on us, to keep our relationship strong. We talk every day before he goes to work, he is working afternoon to the late evening. The weekends we pass together on skype, playing games and talk many hours every time. I could get an android phone so I can call him any time by internet, so we are talking even when he is on the way to get to his job. We talk as much as we can.
But... more the time pass, more I feel destroyed and depressed. I feel sueless myself since I cannot do nothing else than wait. I feel so lonely and I jsut cry every night before sleep. In less than 1 month, it will be officially 1 year since I left Canada. 1 year... only waiting.... But how long it will take at the end?
This is the only question what is in my mind... I just pray to God, to be able to be back to my husband as soon as possible, but I am not even sure anymore if anybody hears my words. I need to hold onto something, to have something what keeps me in hope... But Vienna seems like dead, and no news from nowhere.
I hope my presence won't be bothering for you, guys. I am probably the youngest here, but I wish I could be a part of this atmosphere what you built up and I hope we will get good news so soon from Vienna.
God bless all of you!
