Thanks agen everybody who answer me, and told me what I have to do. I do not have family , relatives here, only my great husband, who understands me and want to help me too. He does not have relatives here, and one day when we are older , we need my son to take care for our business , for us. Some immigrants here know how I feel , during holidays, Christmas,New year.My heart is 50 % here , because I have nice husband, I like Canada, I am Canadian citizen, this is my country, I love it very much, but another 50 % are in the county where I was born because of my son. I am positive person and I believe that one day my son will be here and we will be together and together celebrate many holidays. All the best and happiness for everybody.