@jonmarrow I am so so sorry you were under that much stress yesterday! You might not be able to put into words all you are going through but please do hang in there!!!..
The reason why we are a forum is to lean on each other. We all might have individually felt low at one point in time but coming to the forum helps us rely on each other! The forum gives strength to be honest!!
As regards your Dad..Just let him know that you love him but you would appreciate not talking about the process until you have a feedback for him. Trust me,sometimes people asking questions puts pressure and it can be avoided by just keeping the process to yourself.
Do hang in there.!!It is all part of the story..You will look back at this moment and be grateful you didn't jump!!
I do not know you but..I am sharing a consoling hug with you..Hang in there mate!