Newbies welcome here, applicants sponsoring for Jamaica

[Mrslwsn]

Sometimes I kinda forget I sent in the app...cant be bothered anymore stressing...what will b will b...

 

[witty]

bowy bowy.this wait have my head a way.

 

[Admirable]

Through this process we all have to learn how to be patient. If we didn't start with patience, trust me...we'll end with it. No sense worrying and hurting your head because you're gna go crazy. Things will fall into place when the time is right. As I always say, one day waiting is another day closer to the end.

 

[witty]

thats true

 

[SmoothiesQueen]

You know Witty...I know its so hard on you and your wife to be apart. I know that it kinda casts a shadow on everything else. But my advice to you my friend...enjoy Jamaica...enjoy it while you can. I can't tell you the depression I'm going through right now realizing we have everything in hand and are about to leave. I had no idea it would be like this...I've cried just about every day. It was all pure excitment...until it came through and you realize the reality of getting on that plane. I have to look at my daughter every day and remind myself that this is the best thing..and that once are settled we will be happy. I need my husband to have his citizenship...we need to be able to do more for ourselves as a family. But it doesn't matter how right this decision is...it's never going to make that homesickness and longing for yaad go away.

I am going through the stage right now of regrets...all the things I wish I had done when I had the chance...things I guess right now I feel I will never get to do heading to Canada. One of them was...I wanted to find my bio grandmother that I've never met...assuming she is still alive...and because of family estrangements...I always put it off because of the struggle it was to get details. I wonder if she is still alive..where in Jamaica she is...and why I didn't try harder to find her.

I keep thinking about all the family I have across the island I don't know anything about...time I wasted that I could have been getting to know them.

I think about all the things I'm gonna miss...the friendliness of the island...being able to walk out and run jokes with my neighbours and just chat with someone I've never met as if we've known each other for ages. I'm gonna miss the food...the smells...the music that is playing all hours that for some reason never feels loud. I'm gonna miss the entire vibes of the island...my friends...so much of my family...I'm gonna miss the lifestyle...I'm gonna miss the energy. I could go on forever except its making me cry again just typing this.

I wish when I was waiting more anxiously than I probably let on to the forum...for our papers to come through...I wish I had just put it to the side and just lived my life. Because I'm thinking...wow I have one child and we soon want more...I'm turning twenty five next month...this is probably the last time I will have been able to live in yaad as a young person and do things like a young person..even if we return...we will be middle aged or elderly. It will be yaad...but a different side of it at a different age.

Sorry...kinda venting here...been really struggling with this.

But I'm just saying...there are things you can't change. One of them is how long it takes immigration....and another is the frusteration of not knowing...and the heartache of being away from your loved one and waiting to start your life together.

But one thing you can do..is enjoy life in yaad. I dunno what your plans are with your wife...but you never know with life. What if you never get to return to live....you never know what life will deal you!! What if the amount of vacations you plan don't happen because things get tight? What if before next time you come back a yaad friends or family pass away? I just had this conversation last night with one of my good friends who just migraited to Canada from Kingston....and right after he left two family members and a close family friend passed on. I'm not trying to depress you about leaving either DWL....I'm just saying what I wish had clicked in my head when we were waiting...enjoy yaad while you can.

Because I never knew it would feel like this....even up to the day we got our passports back..I never knew I would feel this way. I mean I had moments...but they always passed and excitment took over. Now...its just pure depression!! Its ridiculous...I'm worse than a pregnant woman...if someone so much as mentions something about Jamaica to me...I start bawl lol...I need to get a grip. You don't even want to know how I react if someone mentions the airport to me DWL!!

Just my advice...but then again being apart from your wife..I imagine its hard to see where I'm coming from because I guess we have everything sorted out so maybe it would be hard for me to see where I'm coming from if I was in your shoes!! I really hope it soon sorts out for you!!

Oh and because after tommorow I might not be on much for a while....all you yaadies...please have a blessed Christmas season..and stay safe during this election madness!! xx

 

[witty]

@ SQ i really feel your pain.especially with ur grandmom.but with the help of god i hope things work out for you in the best way.I am enjoing jamaica but i am just a person who love to work and it seems like there is nothing since i get back,i am financially stable her but not having my wife around its just not the same i dont even enjoing waking up anymore not knowing im not laying besides her and wake up to her.but i pray some day it will get better.

 

[Mrslwsn]

Witty, Anyday now yu go get good news...

 

[witty]

Thanks@Mrslwsn but i think its the new years for me base on the letter i post from the mp.

 

[AMANDAWOOD]

good morning all
wishing you all a suceefull week and here is to hoping that more of us get to be reuinited with our familes for the holidays

 

[Kedeisha]

afternoon all ;D

 

[AMANDAWOOD]

good morning everyone

sad day for me today .....trying to figure out why this world is cold and how people can be socruel to ther one another :'(

 

[Kedeisha]

AMANDAWOOD sorry to hear you are going thru some things

 

[AMANDAWOOD]

thanks kadisha
trust it right now im stressing big time .... my brother law went missing on friday and dem find him body somebody kill him and dump him boday in dovecot cemetary ..... im trying to figure out how people can be so cold .... worried cause my husband taking it hard and i can't be there for him ... this sucks trust me :'( :'(

 

[Kedeisha]

Holy crap me sorry fi hear that man I really am i feel you cant be with ur loved ones in there time of need

 

[Mrslwsn]

Oh wow Amanda, sorry to hear my luv, just support your husband best yu can, and god nah sleep, wicked ppl will get what coming to them.. My sincerest condolences to your family