I just saw this post you put on sat, cheer up, the thing is the preparation of the application its been one of the hardest and stressful things of my life. so I can get your messages better send me a personal message.
I just mail my application to Canada on Friday it took me four months working every night to prepare it, and believe me it was times when I just wanted to run away from it lol.
Even now I sent it I still worry about it.
I definitely get lots of help from the forum. So if I can help you with something, ask me