Oh Pearl
I know you want to go home so badly and my heart just aches for you.
DM is decision made, after first stage approval and current wait times if I believe are another 8 months after that, however hopefully the new barcode system will make that faster.
My only suggestion for going home after first stage approval, as it is completely up to border officers, is having as many ties to this country as possible. Try to see if you can get a job offer and a positive LMO from someone. You are in the best part of the country for that to happen. It's still not a definite that you will be able to go home and come back, but I've seen it happen.