Asivad,
Words cannot express my shock and grief on hearing your rejection. Dear friend, you are like this shining light in this forum sharing your immense knowledge in this forum. I mean people literally create new topics in this forum with your name in it, so much so that whenever I think of this forum, the first name to come to my mind is Asivad Anac. I was eagerly following your thread and posts and kept waiting for that expected news of PPR. If it's anyone who deserves PR, it's you. You have selflessly helped countless people in this forum.
My friend, I know how you feel now. I went through the same thing & it can be disheartening. Dont lose heart and try again. You have entered the pool again & hopefully you will get ITA soon. I'm definitely sure you will get again. We all are behind you mate.
I still think you should take a chance with CSE.