Update: My dad's passed away from stage 4 colorectal cancer yesterday, leaving my mom behind. I promised him a lot and i failed to deliver. I have my two sisters and nephews here, so that helps, but the worst part about the whole situation is i cannot go to his funeral, cause that would mean my TRP gets discarded and i get an automatic deportation order. After this whole situation a stay in Canada doesnt matter to me anymore, but i cant be travelling to other places around the world with a deportation on my record. I havent worked, havent broken any further rules, the only thing i did wrong was taking 3 unauthorized breaks while on my study permit to help out my sister who was pregnant with my nephew at the time, and that was a lapse in judgement, i feel I've been punished enough. I am just tired.